You feel alone, no one understands the pain that you are experiencing. You long for your life to be different, to feel happy again. Wishing that your past didn’t define you and your value. You desire to take back the power that your past stole from you. To determine what your future will look like. Wishing you could look in the mirror and recognize and feel connected to the person that you see looking back at you. You desire to have meaningful relationships again, ones that you can trust and not have to fear being hurt.
Relationships are a struggle. There is a constant question of safety and trust. Trust used to come so easy and it is now such a foreign concept. Safety? What does that even mean? You struggle to know whether the people around you even care about you, or if they have an ulterior motive.
It is hard to feel peaceful and calm when you constantly feel jumpy and on edge. Always aware of your surroundings, you are unable to relax and just enjoy yourself. Being present in the moment feels impossible and you find yourself zoning off, unaware of where you venture to.
